Despite all my efforts I feel so fragile and weak
I journey for a treasure strength of many I seek

But always out of reach
Never can I hold in hand
I throw the punches but never do they land

Often in a crowded room I can hear my silent scream
It all seems so surreal
All just a bad dream

A fake laugh escape then a smile so untrue
I do it all for your sake I do it all for you

I know you would be sad if you understood how I feel
Yet you don't quite comprehend it's ok I will deal.

So I'll sit alone and silent try my best not to cry
Even tho a part of me is starting to wither and die

Like a plant unwatered
A neverplanted seed
A broken stem of a rose all it does is bleed.

So I keep on living just barely day by day
For now I really believe for me happy is not my way.

I am meant for missery lonelyiness and pain
A little bit of mental a small taste of insane

So look for me in the darkness it is where I lye
It is where I'm meant to be untill my last goodbye.