lodged between thoughts in the middle of the night you creep up on me and steal little pieces of me, for safe keeping, you say; you are guarding them but i miss myself when i am alone and it is still and quiet outside
i need a cup of tea and while the kettle boils the cold granite counter grounds me; for a split second i am just someone standing at a counter, waiting for the kettle to boil
but the steam on my face grows cold and it reminds me of your volatile love i like you better when you’re hot and the warmth in my throat is exactly the opposite of grounding which is why i need a cup of tea
what are you doing to me? there is a deep well inside me that always needs to be filled by anything i can provide, but the ever-present hunger has never left me and now it is shaped in such a way that only you can satisfy it and i keep trying to satiate my hunger and i write but none of it makes sense and i fall in love with another guy but i don’t really love him at all
i don’t love you either i just can’t get rid of you because you are stuck in every joint in my body in the air that i breathe and i think you probably hate being stuck there just as much as i hate the discomfort of carrying your weight but it’s not that easy to pick my brain, my body apart and extract you