i’ve been sitting in the dark for a while now, staring at the too bright glow of a computer screen, watching a small bug crawl across the only light source it can find and wondering what it must be like to be close enough to touch the only thing in a room i’m attracted to; what it would be like to be in a room with a light like you.
all my messages are notifications cleared without being read, my whole heart is offered though already being borrowed and begged by friends i haven't even had the audacity to call back.
i am tired of receiving without anything to give but a heart, wholly but more than whole and still not enough.
know, please, days like today i think i am not suited— maybe for anything, much less love, to love, to be loved.
what's more, the exhaustion of giving my whole heart has never proved to be enough; feeling i might always be destined to give too much for nothing while receiving too much with nothing to give but a heart.