I despise myself and every selfish molecule in my body my own traitorous flesh clings to my rotted soul with such strong emotion but I can't pin the source living in shame and guilt trapped here by the speculation of others secretly yearning for your validation just to know I'm worth a smile or a second glance but to expect the best is to receive the worst so I'll never lift my head to check I'd rather doubt you than hope to death
whats worse than losing someone you love? knowing there's no one you love to lose you.