my mind is again drowning
of the thoughts
i fear would happen
in reality;
things i just see
in my head
when dragged by anxiety-

my soul is choking
gasping for air i couldn't grasp
reaching for a lift i couldn't hold
looking for love i couldn't own

i fear of losing you
when these thoughts
are for real
i fear of losing you
because my love
you brought my heart
a great deal