Dear 2020,

I soon realized that these letters were not for me. They were for my parents, who would be surprised but not truly shocked. And so, having realized this, I write this also to them. Soon I will send them the link to my account so that they may read my extensive list of suicide notes. Because I can’t bring myself to believe that anyone truly loves me. Because I don’t love me. And although I wrote my true suicide note several weeks ago, this is my goodbye to a truly horrifying and terrifying world. And the truth is that I probably won’t die today, but if I find myself doing so then I will send the link to my account to my parents.