You held me in your lap
Cradled me in your arms
Kissed me like you meant it
Breathed into me like I was
A figment of your imagination
Said my name like you just needed to hear it
From your own mouth.

It's hard for you to acknowledge
I release my hands
You told me you were kinda sad
I asked if you kiss all your friends
I figured by the end of August
We would have fizzled out
I wonder if you wonder if I'll have moved on
I wonder if we will both be a little stronger
A little more complete in ourselves
When you return
Even though the time
Is not that long at all.

There are a lot of things I need
From a partner
I recognize the things in you
That show me that you could do it
I recognize the things in you and in me too
That show me we both can't do it.

Not now.

I wonder if it's just me
But a pained part of me doubts it
I think to myself I better get back on it
Letting you have me with no protection
But it feels so natural, so like heaven
Finding reasons to be angry at you day to day
I'm not sure what I'm aiming for
But I know I can't stay.

A little more hustle
A full cup of Colorado
Calls out to me
I reach my hand out to you
But let it drop back down to my side
Taking you in with every drop of my life
Hearing my name, hearing your sighs
Seeing the look in your eyes
As the wind swept our hair up.

I don't know
I just wanna give up.

So I will for now.