I couldn't help myself
I had to have him
I needed to see if
what I felt was real,
If I could really feel!

This led to my downfall,
my heart exploded
my mind imploded
my character lost
A massacre of my soul!

My every cell screams for him
I am in utter ruin
I will never regain sanity
that has been eradicated
from my very identity

What I have done
I have ravaged my spirit
I can't ever trust myself
I gave more that I had to him
I walked away empty, alone & crushed!