You been in a situation for quite some time now but i think your not happy so i dont see how. Why would you settle if you are worth so much more ?At your ripe age you have the world to explore. I think you should take a chance and try something new, spontaneous, no thought a decision right out the blue.  But keep that clear mind, and to thy self be true. But i think you settle for the way things are and im happy for you. But tell me something can you picture this? A long walk on the beach, a long moon lite kiss. Eating plates of lobster and having a few drinks. Red lipstick now fading to pink. Long night of dancing or even catch a show, it really wouldnt matter because your happy so just go. Trips on boats, traveling across blue sea, eat exotic food as your hair blowing in the breeze. Rendezvous in nice places, with a special friend, maybe a little role playing or a game of pretend. I dont know it your choice and yours alone to make, but i just have one question "How long does your happiess have to wait?"