This is my mountain
My greatest challenge
Although I began strong
I found I can't finish what I start
Now lying at the bottom
I can see all the mistakes
All the missteps, the faults, and the cracks
That caused this avalanche
Every inch I get closer, every step
It's a new chance for failure
The peak is hidden
With the mist and clouded judgement
So how close am I?
There it is again
That familiar rumble of demise
What started as a pebble
Became my downfall
Falling down
Getting lower
And lower
Until
I
Hit
Bottom
Crushed by the snow
My fears and regrets
Frozen
Numb
Lifeless
Now what?
I dig my my way out
But Why?
It's only going to happen again
Like so many other times
The fine powder so heavy
The face so steep
Yet I persist
I have to finish
I'll go down fighting
This internal War is getting to be too much
Higher and Higher I ascend but it's always the same
I continue to be knocked off, far from finishing, but it's not enough
I have to reach my goal
These obstacles only motivate me
But I can't overcome them if I can't amount to them
So here it comes again
That agonizing rumble
The crushing weight
Slowly crushing my hope
I give up