It was always been like this,
you will smile at me and you will say---
"you're gonna be fine"
and I know I'm not.

It was always been like this,
you will run towards me and chant---
"I'm excited for your life"
but you know I'm not.

It was always been like this,
you will hug me and you will whisper ---
"I miss you"
but was I the one you miss or the lively vibe I give?

It will always turn out like this,
I'm gonna laugh when you make your dumb faces.
It will always turn out like this,
I'm going to smile even though i'm not okay.

It will always turn out like this
I'm going to be happy cause' you're here with me.
but why is it the one who always;
found out that i'm lying is you?

Why is it every time I will bring down a tear,
you're always here to catch it?
Why is it every time I die,
you're always there to bring me back to life?

I hated you,
for leaving me behind.
But now I still hate you,
for coming back right now.

Wait no, I hate that I like you.
I'm crazy enough to jump without you.
I'm a ***** to force you to fly with me.
I'm right to think that I have a lonely story.

Yet I still hate you.
You still treat me the same,
I'm still a lost child in your eyes.
I'm still the sister you care about.

I hate our 3 years age gap,
I hate that I'm your ideal sister.
I hate that I will never be your lover.
I hate that our age bring down the bridge

I hate you.
No wait, I hate that I like you.
Yet I still hate you.
I hate that I'm liking to love you