Been running away for most of my life, Always turning back to feeling the blade of the knife. Getting older is making me grow colder. No one to turn to but my own lonely shoulder. But somehow none of it seems that bad. Maybe it is and that's why nothing ever lasts. I don't know where i'm going but i hope i get there soon. Maybe if i'm lucky i'll find a hand to hold onto. But i can never hold onto the same shoes. And maybe that's why i'm always searching for clues. But i'm finding that i'm running out of hope to continue. And lately i've been mostly numb. To death will i succumb? I always feel like it follows me around. Maybe that's why i feel safer in a crowd. But what is life if you have no real connections? I guess i need to figure out a way to change the direction. Maybe it's all about the perception. But until i find a way to feel better about my disarranged life. I'll try my best to have hope and get rid of this strife.