my solace
my confidant
my brother
I have made mistakes aplenty
I have cried into the night
I have lied through my teeth
I have sinned and never asked for forgiveness
I have sought and never found
but regardless you remained steadfast
I doubted your path and ambitions
I was lost in myself
and denied you
I am emotional
you are gone
a least in presence
and I long for another bond
you chase the lead your heart feeds
you sought wisdom and were not forgotten
I've seen your blood
your tears
your struggles and shortcomings
successes and failures
your family is mine
and mine yours
death could be the only separation
so live on
be the man you've fought to be
be the man that your lover needs
and continue being closer than blood to me