You never liked me,
          not even from the start.
Nothing I could do would change your mind,
     I was always just a step.
          A blemish to the "perfect unit".

You didn't try to stop it when I almost drowned...
Part of me feels you would have enjoyed it.
          No more unwelcome guest to dinner.
My birthday was almost always forgotten,
     Like you didn't want to think of another year of me.
The holidays were always long and sad,
     You never wanted me there, I might ruin something.
          In your eyes I already had.
My academic status meant nothing,
You're a trade family-I didn't fit in.

What did I do?
I tried to fit in,
     To be one of the family,
          To get you to like me.
All my attempts were met with a frown and turn of the head.
So I gave up and just went of being myself.

You're in the hospital now...and I feel nothing.
I hope you get better, I really do.

But while I don't hate you...
                  I dont't love you either.