i am not very organized
i misplace my keys a lot
forget to show up at all
people say im irresponsible
they say im careless-
cant blame them
they just dont understand
my thoughts are a mess
filled with the unimportance
of people's smiles
the shape of their lips - i like to study those
i analyze more than i know myself
the way someone talks
are they aware of their listeners?
do they know what they are saying?
when i talk, i have no clue -
because my mind is an utter mess
laughter fascinates me
but - most of all -
i like to study eyes
when people smile or cry or talk
i look them in the eye
for they are the window to the soul -
they say.
sorry i forgot to call back
sorry i wasnt listening,
lost in thought about my own existence

im sorry.