I visit you in dreams
in secret
even though I can have you here
now
but I can't
even though both of us want that
but it's not to be
(right now).
We need to realize that
so we can move on
and this can all blow away.
So I can say yes once more
and have it feel whole
(a whole entire lie).
You're holding me back,
in turn making this so much worse
when it ruins us both,
you a little bit more than me
in a different kind of sense.
I'm holding you back
from something you can actually have
something so much better
(but that makes me strangely upset).
I wish you would realize that
so this can all blow away
in theory.