Tell me what it is like to quit your house in silence to wander invisibly among friends and dear ones. do you hear that silent welled up tear? do you smell that hurt in me? it seems like yesterday that we joked and laughed at silly little things loud and ribald now that laughter seems raucous and empty and cruel, as if echoing from some bottomless cavern something hurts deep within as you return again and again; your impish eyes and naughty grin taunt and haunt... How is it that even a happy memory is painful? Maybe now you know Maybe now you can tell me everything i want to know. Farewell, my friend. Even if you didn't feel it necessary to say so.