when I was a child I thought of snooch
I couldn't get away from it before I'd even seen it;
it was a rumors bad             boys &       *****            girls talked
about in hushed code words - sometimes
              while smoking - hiding or alone : my sister      among them
like snooch & ***-***, boo-boo & miss thing -
****** & ***** were e verywhere
invisible hiding                        in trousers & up dresses [       snooch
[snooch was there when I went to school;
        I only went to                                sniff the teacher's pantyhose,
but she let Gary do it                .
                             & I had to watch; humiliated
I tried suicide hanging by a belt        but [&] it felt so good -
[she kept her jungle trimmed;
     [golden blonde] a dreamy cloud of insane nightmares;
only a mother could engulf the moon in her jaw; taking a           big bite out of the *** of the stars; stars; stars--
       reaching out beyond her arms;
good; I saw the night & it
           was as good  [Victoria in the night by the red light; her joy hidden beneath time(        ); (           ) [       , (                    )]    
            as chocolate [really. it was: I took a bite out of night's *** & she screamed - gravity panicked -        
I kept hanging myself but forgot
about suicide - ****** a girl from the [ I very well imagine that should ***** Luo after      hours       on my office floor but                     ] Midwest in Central Park [never happened] she appeared as the Goddess Minerva to warn me but did I heed; I don't recall, so,
   she said she was a Jew & I said 'what's a        Jew' - (I was eighteen - not the sharpest (               ) & she told about Auschwitz & I went & studied Nazis & became spellbound
by Adolf ****** & read everything about him I could -
until I think w/ his brain (rotten apple that
           it was - conceive of grandiose schemes of local,            nee global conquest - but I'm not ****** -
        (in fact she became my good friend -     & I her protector of sorts] I was going through                some changes - deciding to devote myself to art[a Gaugin                                         complex except
w/                                      white-trash redneck girls: Sunburnt Suburban
Primitives I called them]                                       lurking, one, two how many could fit in a nest; (w/ Mein Kampf in my
back pocket I wanted to             conquer the world but only the
women; growing up w/ women
          from the beginning; emerging from a snooch
only to be hounded by them
                             when I had
no magical  Mjolnir    [no Excalibur, or sling & stone          ];             to wield against them (harpies to the last -
or quiet corpses that                frightened me to chills - )
                        & when I did I only
              wanted to hurt them but now
                                [cop·ro·phil·i·a ˌ     käprəˈfilēə/noun
noun: coprophilianec·ro·phil·i·a
ˌnekrəˈfilēə/noun
noun: necrophilia
****** *******
with or attraction toward corpses.
Translate necrophilia to nekrofili
Use over time for: necrophilia
                               abnormal interest and                                                 pleasure in feces
and defecation is allowed]                            (dead albino \
girls in the African bush rise
                         & walk again;
gorgeous Albino Zombies                                         converge on Lagos;
                                    I love them & the hammer has turned  to (         ) gold [&]now      brilliantly gleams as daylight fawns
              in the fleshly(                   )
                         metaphysical sun - Oh, we know, my
                          mistresses                       whose s-shaped               shadows
           are sentient                                 of themselves: where        ,
down our magic                carpeted             corridor:
             one boudoir for u& ur (                 ) Mesmerized
by Eva Braun's             smile n a one-piece                  -           not seeing anything   evil                      in the *******,
               learning about ancient    [ancient women arise;
shades of Amazons & poets -                         goddesses reborn w/ magical
                   charms - in their infant hands -
[Isadora-like in their                  leaps & crawling
    to & fro to show off how unshaven a
woman can be; hairy as a gorilla yet quite arousing; I thin  k
Vedic castes & how the Aryans came to invade the Indus Valley thus laying the foundation for the world's          oldest empire      [now fractured into ghostly pieces ]   [preferring Isadora's healthy curves
                              to Martha's bony angles                              
poltergeist-lover               Holy Roman Byzantine Roman Greek et al -      going all the way back to Atlantis &
Lemuria & farther back than (                 ) man's recorded time -
but back -
nevertheless    

oh, this was a mighty mystery,
my little man, this was a
          jungle unseen surrounding one in ways
not dissimilar to dark      matter