never sleeping never calm stress and uncertainty bubble underneath my skin reflecting on every word you've said where are you now are you okay are you alive, even i'm just so worried about you you've all i've ever cared about all i've ever cherished i've never loved anyone as much as you and now you've just disappeared no notes not anything at times i tell myself i'm just being paranoid she'll show up out of nowhere and we'll laugh and laugh and laugh and maybe that's true but i sincerely doubt it you're gone and i will cross mountains sail seas go across deserts just to find you i will never stop trying even if it costs me my life i will find you, my love but until then i'll just be writing poems to you kinda futile, isn't it writing poems to a person who might not even be alive anymore, just with a sliver of hope that they might find it even though it's impossible it's completely useless but that's all i ever was in the first place, i suppose never sleeping never calm
i'll be updating this until i find you. i love you.