Dear “Dad”
And as I should...
I trust you...
I trust the imagination of you
Running up to my school
Protecting me saying “Don’t let nobody pick on you”
I trust the imagination
Of the strength in you
When I was 18
with my kidney
Trying to fail me...
That you lifted me to your car
And drove me to emergency
I trust at 21
You were there to guide me
And tell me...
My baby won’t have no baby
With a man who gave no ring
I trusted the phantom
Of you... at 22...
When I felt my ugliest
And postpartum
Gave me clues
To missing puzzle pieces
That unleashed
all my demons
That you’d come
And pray for me
You’d come and
Show me peace..
You’d help me find relief
I trust.. at 25...
What a time to be alive
That i’d finally search
For that man
That resembled my dad
Now at 29
I... searched... and searched
And could not find
Of course cause i
had no clue ...
A woman who knows not a father
Can’t know what a man is too...
I trusted you first...
Yet you continue to
break my heart last...
But I’m finally learning
I forgive you
Dear “Dad”