You have no idea

Thats what kills me
The silence that must be kept
And can't be spoken
Keep it deep inside
Never let it out
Or else something may happen
Something that turns the perspective you have upside down
The truth you know becomes a lie
Everything around you takes a step back
And re-examines who you are

You know how you were made
Who you were meant to be
How you're supposed to live
But life's getting in the way

The want to's are becoming have to's
And the have to's will change everything

You're not ready
You never will be
You don't want to be
You're following against everything you've come to know

Your heart wants it all
Your mind says stop

You always have been an intellectual