My grandma always told me look up at the moon when im feeling sad
look up at the stars and just know itll be okay
I would go outside and look up and stare so hard i felt like my eyes were gonna fall out when i was done
i wanted so badly to know what i didnt know
i wanted it like i wanted to breathe
every night my mom would come outside looking for me telling me its late
you have to sleep
i refused because something was pulling me into that sky
sleeping meant i had to stop looking and i couldnt stop
it was like gravity was working against me
trying to infatuate me with the things above
i knew what i was looking for was bigger than myself
i was young and foolish thinking maybe
just maybe
I would see some sort of hope in that sky
I would see a million stars that gave me the answers to all the questions in life
I would see the moon that gave me the comfort i so heavily longed for
I was searching for something that was so hard to find
It wasnt until i was a little older that i finally understood
what i was looking for was a girl with the night sky in her eyes and the moon in her heart.