Time
Unease
All the lights went out as one
Before blasting back on again
Flashing a thousand times per second
And everyone of them I count
And it counts me out

Feeling
Like sixteen again
Take a bottle
Forget a pill
Look inside
See its filthy still

Shadow holding me
It comes inside
Like filthy things in the night
So I close my eyes
Sew shut my mouth
Trace my words with barbed wire

I feel them carving against my insides
Hooking flesh and trailing blood
Carving words I'll never speak and always feel
Right into my bones

These things will never leave their home
Sleeping sickly between these bones
Spoken from a rotten tongue
To keep inside
To say to no one
Cause I am no one

I'll keep on sleeping
In this body pretending to be awake
I'll keep on feeling
In this body pretending to be okay

And maybe
Just a maybe
One day
I might just be okay

Thats the lie I will believe in
To make it through the day