Light
I tried
The curtains as my witnesses
Tried to bail out my banned soul
The moon hears all the whisperers
Breathing thicker air than us

Hear the groans and moans of wolves
Across my river's path of tears
Crushed under wheels of carrousels
Like anyone hold near

These horrid beasts under my dirt
Spare me my troubled sin
It's not a soul I hide in there
For I never let light in.

Dead inside
Just want to die
See my thick blood drip to the floor
Drizzling over those fake memories
Fake love
Fake remedies
My heart still at war
Slit my wrist
Just one more time
I can't bear, I can't exist

Blood dripping down the drain
Rusty old pain
Take away yesterday
So I can't get hurt tomorrow
Please
Stab me
Slice me
Don't want to stay
I cannot belong here
Won't survive either way

Hand me the knife, will ya
No worries
I am doing great.

**** me please
I can't endure
All this pain you put me through
Shoot me now
And you will see
The soil flowing out of me
Dead flowers drying in the heat
My grave filled with deceit
Rotten hope
Not build to last
Ghost that'll hunt you
From my past
Thinking you did the right thing
Still your actions sting
Poison in my long cold heart
Like that we'll never be apart.

You broke my heart
But I love you
With all the pieces
Shattered 'round
This walking carcass
Hollow eyes
Still blossoming
With bright purple flowers
All I need
Is to think of you
The shards of my heart light up as one
Make me whole again

Almost expecting you to pull up my drive way
Like nothing happened
Like nothing's broken, nothing's scarred
Here to light my heavy heart

Songs I've never heard
Doing their best
To tell me their meaning
Screaming, yelling, weeping

Your message through the skies
Of incomprehensible loneliness
Feelings travel through the mists
Unsure if they even exist

I feel my mind
Gliding down
Deeper and deeper I am sinking
Into this state of wishful thinking.

Still've got your voice inside my head
Saying all these beautiful things
Funny, heartbreaking, loving things
Memories I can't forget
Not strong enough yet to accept
You're no angel, ain't got no wings

Everytime my phone rings
A part of me believes it's you
To tell me you do love me
That there's truth in said things

But it's never you.

Oh, raise your hand up child
Hold it up to the light
Those sparks in your eyes
Don't let them dim tonight

I know your eyes see fear
When lost they look around
Can't hope for too much dear
Your heart remains unfound

And cold
Is what wraps around you
To hold
Those wolves that hound you
Hear them howl
See what it amounts to
I know that scowl
I've worn that mask too

Gathered here, miles from home
Aching feet through the dirt
Dragging hearts around like stone
Notes of pain written on your bones

So raise your hand
So that I might find you
Not all roads should be walked alone
Sometimes the company we keep
Is what we end up calling home