it starts off
right in the core of my heart

it spreads
numbingly quick

i start to lose my senses

vision blurry
fingertips numb
ears quiet
and mind empty

my awareness is reduced to
not solitude,
but rather
isolation.

my body loses warmth
my heartbeat slows down
i start shivering
and then the pain starts

from feeling nothing
to absolutely everything

the pain washes over every inch of my skin
and  i feel it sting my eyes
my tears escape and i start to shake
my hands
my body
my soul

everything is crashing around me
but i dont make a sound
i lay here
quiet

i lay here
broken

i lay here
lonely.