I knew I was actually heartbroken
when I didn't miss you just at 2am
but also at 2pm, when I was in a room full of people

when I looked for you as I pulled into my parking lot.
when I drove by the event center we went to a couple nights before you left.

when I checked my phone and didn't respond to anything
because I didn't see your name

when I started posting more on that one social platform
hoping you'd catch me smiling and fall for it again.

when I  had someone amazing right in front of me,
but I only had eyes for you.

when I realized every move I'm still making,
is in hopes that it works with the ones you might be making now.

when I came home, and it didn't feel like home.