Loss
Nobody understands loss until they‘ve felt it. That word covers many things but I hope you feel the loss of me whilst I‘m still alive, that type of loss is life changing and soul destroying. Losing someone because you didn‘t appreciate them enough, love them enough or even given them your all when they gave their absolutely everything knowing you don’t give a **** about them. I hope you feel that, I hope it hits you hard in the throat that you lost me, I hope it punches you in the stomach that you lost the one girl who would haven given it all up for you. I hope it terrifies your soul and keeps you awake at night for days on end because you didn‘t love me the way I did. I hope you‘re afraid to move just how I was because I knew you were no longer in my life and now I know I‘m not in yours. I hope to God you cry in your sleep just how I cried myself to the point I had no cure but to sleep and only you know how much sleep had hated me. I hope you see me in everything you do and feel the regret take over your body because you realise you did not appreciate me enough. I hope you scream so loud thinking I can hear you but I won‘t because once I screamed ever so loud in hope you would ever hear my voice but you never did, even when I was so close to you. Loss, I hope it hits you so hard one day that you realise, you lost me. The loss that you‘ll spend your whole life regretting just because you had life to live.