I can't help but to envision long talks on summer nights
Cliche poems I wrote you'll convince me to recite
Asking if this is for life
Thinking it just might
Wish I could be sleeping next to you every night
Knowing you're the light at the end of the tunnel
Drowning in your love keeping me humble
Knowing you'll catch me if I stumble
Allowing me to see what real love can do
Expressing that I will always love you
Excited to share thoughts I never have before
Giving you my heart and so much more
Ready to explore you down to your core
But wait, pause...
I snapped back to reality
To the present state where you ripped out all my heart in totality
The beginning of this is what I hoped for
Now these are currents facts, nothing less than true
The real story of what's between me and you
I wish I could have known
I wish I didn't rely on your presence to give my heart a home
However I'm still thankful for the self love you gave
Made me realize I never needed anyone just to be saved
No I'm not sad, mad, frustrated
Just nostalgic of the times when I knew we would have made it.
Now we have become nothing more than strangers
I'm clouded with the thought of love being a danger
The main thing that took a toll were my expectations
Now I approach trust with just hesitation
I'm well aware time heals all
But it still doesn't change the pain of the fall
You were my karma for hearts I broke in the past
Leading on women when I knew we wouldn't last
I was content being genuine and toxic
Both smiling and nauseous
Just when I thought my heart was closed
You conjured up a key like a locksmith
I allowed you to invade all my space
Giving anything for a smile on your face
Your scent became embedded in my flesh
I thought about our future and what was next
Little did I know how much I invested
So by the time you were gone I couldn't have helped it
No time to embrace or prepare
So when you said you loved someone else
My face drew a blank stare
Heartache became more than just emotional
It became physical
Seeking advice from friends, just to get ridiculed
The struggle is what makes you self made
Taking in consequences like there was a price to be paid
All beauty has consequences
I clearly am not your last
But just another obstacle you had to pass
No love lost
I wish you the best
No hard feelings
I'll just figure out the rest
And for those who read this I can attest
Open your minds
Never live life off the concept of time
Along with opportunities and words
These things you can't get back
I gotta focus more and get back on track
I'm over being an option and not a priority
I gave you everything I had til there was no more of me
I'll create my own foundation
More self love without any hesitation
Never mistake my trust issues as insecurities
Never mistake silence as purity
We all have our demons
I keep mine away
Safe in the corners so they don't see the light of day
I wish you the best and you'll find another
But on some real ****. Stop texting my mother