no no no the fact that he would look into my eyes and deny me of these feelings it makes me want to become unborn to sink back into my mother's womb and never re-appear no no no not another drink not another wasted word her eyes wash over, she goes unseen i watch the night soak her within the light but her heart is dark this is darkness this is death, caught within her throat caught within her running veins no no no this can't be it this can't be me running off the tracks he asks me again and again with innocent eyes why doesn't this make sense? my answers are silent no no no* one seems to know