i once upon a time
honey coated rhyme
flowed from my voice
like a song in the breeze.

this expressed my happiness
and sappiness towards love.
my sadness and oddness,
but gleaming from above,

was light, which i was blinded by
and my eyes could not see through, though i
had eventually sifted through the fog,
but our bond had worn, almost gone

and i thought, "why shall i be
there when someone doesn't need me?
i think he thinks im using him,
for i need use or i'm useless.
because, which, upon i lost,
understanding and laughter and simple thoughts,
i've grown distant and cold and serve no purpose,
but to vent and cry, now i am worthless."

and though it sounds harsh, it is true
i was never meant to stand by you
for once, i felt quite alive
but the feelings that a felt inside;

nevermind, onto my goals and dreams-
my purpose was to fufill your needs
comfort, happiness, but i broke that barrier
and let my emotions become the carrier

i'm happy if other people are too
but all i can provide is sadness for you
so not only did we be torn apart
i slowly lost that gleeful spark

AND not only did i cross the line,
i became selfish and lonely and only cried
everything i did was meaningless,
i gave up, but felt much less of
everyone around me, for i thought they were
merely there to reassure
that i'd just be their happy clown
putting on a silly crown
but if you look beyond the gown,
maybe what is lost is found,
and wrong is right and i can now,
rest knowing you're okay and how..
i let go? i need'nt know.

we both know that i'm just there. to. just. be..

i'm
being
selfish.
why?
why did this have to happen?
why does it always end like this?
is "end" right?
i dont want it to-

"goodnight."