As a child I looked up to you
Seen hard working person whenever you were around
Always bringing me things from wherever you worked
Thoughts of you were always cool
The many lady's that you had around around would cook a wholesome meal for me
The video games that would keep me busy for months on end became a piece of me
Staying with you for the summer months was always a joy for me
But  time moved on just like it is suppose to do
I grew up and seen reality as it truly is
And grew very nostalgic whenever I look back at those memories of what they were to me
Now I see all the rough and rugged edges because I am old enough to handle the truth
You have fallen down on hard times due to substance abuse
I was making unconscious decisions because I had always looked up to you
Searching for my happiness at the bottom of the bottle just like my rock bottom role model