when will you release my heart? you clench it, squeeze it, tear it in two different directions. i can't tell whether you're caring for or breaking it.
when will you be kind? you used to take me by the arm and throw me across the room and now the only thing that takes a beating is my mind. i wish the scars you left were still physical ones.
when will you be steadfast? it seems like in a matter of seconds, you've gone from screaming at me to treating me like someone you do love. i just wish you weren't a rollercoaster.
when will you tell the truth? you say you love me, that you care, that you do everything for me, but you call me a ****. immature. a failure. cowardly. weak. invalid. a waste of time, money, space.
when will you love me? you say you do. you feed and clothe me. you pay for school and extracurriculars. is that love? is you doing what you're expected to do as my mother love?
you ask if i will be happy somewhere else. you ask why i am so reserved in your house. you ask why i don't like to talk to you. i can't respond because i know the answer i would give would make you feel like a bad