I'm not her. You don't look at me and think "How beautiful. Peaceful." You glance and say "Move over you lazy ****."
I'm not gonna do drugs. But I want to. To stay dry and trip.
I won't go to clubs. Parties. Hook up with strangers. But I want to. I want to drink til I can't think. I want to be used to it. I want to be used. To be able to pull long hair And have scratches on my back. To not remember your name.
But I'm awkward And only a glance. But I'm okay with that Because when you know me When you listen, you're stunned. Now you know what I want. And it's not the me you expect. And that's scary. So you stay.
I'm not that party girl you forget. I'm the one that sticks like a bad habit. I want to be both.
But I smirk with a bad intension instead. Not inviting you in.