she sees only red in her inner vision psychopath sociopath borderline see what u want to see in ur mild stupor; she is sitting by the window she is not going to jump; aweshe sp her heart i s a half-empty glass Gerty gets her she left her glasses hair done by Kathie why does the wind whistle so ar ther the I can see blind men leading the others I can only t hink of he need medication I r or I'll get violently sick luring others w/ their gay songs into the dark hole belo w all dreams she's p she's been below before stepping e sparrows in the trees filled w/ sunlight moonlight at the window like me I will go out & find Victoria; bewitching vamp whom I lost, sits for day I found her under a tree as a dead princess greenish in complexion sailing toward the sun on wax wings