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May 2018
I'm sorry for the **** that i put you through,
I'm sorry for taking my anger out on you,
and I'm sorry for shutting you out when it came to my emotions too,
I guess you treat me in a way that I'm not used to,
all I've ever had is people using me and giving me abuse,
and I just took it because that's what I'm used to,
yeah I admit I'm scared to get close to you,
because I'm scared to let my feelings show,
but the more I push you away the deeper they grow,
that's why I get high smoking this crow,
**** I get high every night on this dope,
I'm damaged goods girl; yeah I'm broke,
broken in two.
You tell me to sort my life out and that's what I'm trying to do,
but at the same time all I can think about is you,
it's ****** up girl and I just dont know what to do,
because every time you're gone I miss you,
every time you're near me I just want to kiss you,
yeah believe me girl it's true,
I've never loved anyone the way I love you.
but then the mood changes,
one of us gets angry,
I snap at you and you snap right back at me,
our relationship turns into a fighting match and it just ain't healthy,
I want us to be together but right now we can't be,
because I got issues I need to work on and you got issues too,
don't think I'm doing this intentionally to hurt you,
that's the last thing I wanna do.
I'm just sorry for all the pain,
I guess I'm just trying to find me again,
they say love hurt and i think it's true,
because you don't know what you got until they leave you,
so now I'm sitting just reminiscing,
looking at all the pictures of me and you,
and I wish there was a way to work this out,
a way for us to be happy and not scream and shout,
just laugh and smile and muck about,
like the old days,
wow how times have changed,
will you wait for me or will you walk away?
my mind full of the same questions every day,
I know you said to give each other space and that's cool,
but what if you move on,
and the feelings you have for me fade away?
what if we leave it and then it's too late,
girl if you go i dunno if i'll ever be okay.
Alex John Peace
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Alex John Peace  28/Trans Male/East Sussex
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