The days drag on.
Each one harder than the last.
Each one taking a part of me.
Now I have nothing left.
Nothing left but my own reminders.
Show a smile.
Give another laugh.
Make a joke.
Say you're fine.
Just a little while longer.
All these things I have to tell myself,
Or else I'll forget to live.
Though it's not much of a life.
Just a show the world sees.
Just a show I put on until I'm alone.
Then comes my reality.
The darkness that spreads through my soul.
The grief that overcomes me.
The tears that flow until I run out.
The desperation to feel anything but this hurt.
The hope for numbness to come back.
Such a grim life,
But its all I have left.
Everyone has left like they said they wouldn't,
But I'm never alone.
The dark hole that commands my life is by my side.
Through every heartbreak, it never strays from me.
It stays always and embraces me with its pain.
It's all I'll ever have.