i lost 'me' somewhere along rusty tracks i'd found myself one day nine years old counting chirps birds made suspended in the air swinging up and
down
now i'm down again now i'm not sure what age means the word "nineteen" tossed out and looked down upon always too young too naive
now i'm smoothing out edges with the rough skunky smoke i'd learned to let go and a calloused heart
one ex lover silent in our room while i sit here on the couch alone ****** hungover
another man down the street with my heart and his lover's head on his chest if i'm the mistress i guess that makes him the cheating ******* but i can't help but sympathize
at least i've got a full pack of smokes and my cat to keep me company