Your whole life you had to make yourself small, quiet, to bend and occupy the least amount of space. You couldn't be a reason of worry, 'cause, after all, your family just had enough worries. You believe that your childhood was so different than mine, but what you used to do sounds too familiar to me. I also have done this, I got sick because of this, even if you don't know. I'm not sure if I'm too good at hiding stuff from you, or if you're just too blind for not noticing.