How long will I weep bitter tears at the side of empty caskets? Until I fall in one of my own to bed in a sleepless sleep. And on the day that you find my empty eyes crying no more, Who is it then that will have to weep? Because as I stand now, you do not see that I am dying. As I stand now, to you , I may as well already be dead. You see the hollow in my smiles and you ignore it. I fear I will lie alone when I lie in my eternal bed. So take my body and feed it to an unquenchable flame To signify all of the times you wished I would burn in hell. Spread my ashes over the deepest ocean trenches, When I sink, I know you will find bliss in my farewell. Oh, how I have loved you all of these years, so blindly. The secrets I've shared, the vulnerabilities I've bared I thought you were the one person who would never hurt me Indeed, I was youthfully naive and violently scared. In my last moments, please, pull your dagger from my back restore, at least partially, any dignity I have that may remain Even now that I die, I cannot hate you entirely. Part of me wishes to blame this on your need to inflict pain.