***** this ****
do you know how much this *****?
in all reality a little bit but not that much
but it feels absolutely terrible
i have been crying all ****** day and i am the exact definition of a mess
and none of this is your fault, so don't be emotional and blame yourself
and don't avoid me, that just makes this 10x worse
it's okay to not feel that way anymore
or to not be ready to be in a relationship
or to just be in a bad mental spot and need to not
i respect that ****, it's completely okay, but this still hurts like a *****
i can't function and i just keep breaking down
and im so angry with myself because i shouldn't feel this way
but then he's on my *** about it being okay
and its confusing my emotions cause im angry with me but he's not
my brain has been all over the place today

i hate this so much
because now you know how i feel about all of this craziness
and i really didn't want you to know cause i didn't think anyone cared
i just expect every person who leaves me to just walk away without ever looking back
but i guess you didn't and now you know that I've been a blubbering mess
hopefully you at least know that it's okay
it's okay to not like me, i get it
i'm me and i just talk about Delilah and old books and music too much
and i don't know how to be romantic at all
i understand, so why can't i just snap out of this?
oh wait, it's cause your fricking amazing

yea, so ***** this ****
why do i have to pretend like i'm fine when you already know i'm not
why do you have to shut me off along with the power button?
****, i hate feelings