I was a young girl
Curious and naive
He was a older boy
Full of mystery
His stare was intense
His approach was straight forward
I never met such a guy
He was interested in me
He told no lies
I was interested in him
But I averted my gaze
I made up excuses
And stayed in denial
After all I was foolish
A young selfish child
I hid behind my disguise
Ignored my feelings because of my high maintenance  pride .
He didn’t give up
He pursued me for a while
But like all crushes slowly fade away
I was no longer the center of his attention
I knew his intentions
But I just pushed him away
I didn’t own up to my feelings
I gave him a hard time
If I told him I loved him
Then I wouldn’t feel this way        So empty.
So alone .
So abandoned.