what is better than watching videos of your childhood to realize how much you have been growing? when i was 4, living on my old house on the countryside, dad introduced me to animals, plants, geography and all the secrets of the  space. when i was 5, i remember jumping on his feet so i would move together with him. i would cut my hair by myself and drive my mom crazy. i wanted to be everything; i would go to the space and explore the galaxy, i would go on expeditions to find new plants and photograph animals, i just felt nothing would ever stop me. and i am still glad, for the best dad in the world, inspiring me and giving me humanity. now he is so afraid, i am not his little child anymore and the world, that once was all mine and ready for my dreams, seems dark and seeking to hurt every piece of my body, soul and mind.