It's the weirdest thing, we've had zero contact in 9 months.
Even after I filed for divorce you said nothing.
I wouldn't have believed anything you'd say anyway.
But it was the strangest thing, that you'd show up everyday, anyway.
Your best friend living across from me was pretty convenient...
Wouldn't you say?

And that's the one thing about myself I can honestly say is maddening...
Always trying to figure out the "why" behind a persons behavior.
Even when it shouldn't matter.
I don't know what I expect to find as I question a persons crazy motives behind the crazy things they do.
Maybe I think it'll bring some understanding??
Oh God...
Yea right...
What am I saying...

I told myself I didn't wanna know, I didn't care to know, and from that moment on I ignored your presence hard until I was gone.
Even when I knew you were there.
But you were always there.

Out of sight out of mind was my safest route.
You longer exist is what I chose to tell myself.
I blocked you on everything and yet I find another profile of you.

You never say anything or reach out.
So yet again here I am wondering why the hell you do the things you do.