Hollow
Used
Empty

Still, the pain flashes through my body
The lightning of a storm
Illuminating the demons
That have made their way to the shadows
I trip over the broken soil on the ground
and lose myself to sorrow

I didn't see this coming
I never do
The clouds do not gather and grey
The sky does not darken
The tears begin before I notice them fall
I fail to slow this panicked breathing
Picking apart my last moments...
What was my trigger this time??

Speechless and empty-handed
Soaked from the downpour
Weak from the memories

I lie on the cold floor with my demons
Allow them their attention
Before I start to dig another grave
Shallower than the one before
Eventually, we will part ways
On foot
Or below the dirt

In moments like these
I welcome the latter.