I am one of those strange animals you may see in the street
Everything has gone awry, I ride my bike
I go back and forth for drug tests, I am lost in the cracks of court programs
I am sized up and knocked about by authority

I am waning intellect
I am what should have been but met toxins in the water

No longer young and full of life
The pain has collected beneath my eyes

I toil in fast food restaurants and watch YouTube videos
I do not know what to learn to save my life
I cannot afford college and I could go to jail for a long time if i wake up late

I do not talk to friends and my heart is going cold
The passion that once drove me now causes pain so I ignore it
Today I operate on fear and that is what powers my bike across highways and roads with no sidewalks

I have receded and become unassuming, when once I turned people on

I cannot transcend myself
I am too weak
I feel the universe
Is starting to transcend me
O, pity
I know how wrong it is
But you have become my bitter meal
I cannot break the habit
You are the easiest fruit to find
Yet so bland
And void of nutrition.

How cruel it is that a thing like this
Should happen to a man such as me
All for a simple mistake
I bleed and bleed and bleed

Masterless, dejected, I
Play with my mediocrity
I used to find brilliance all the time
I dig at the gray place
But it seems each time
I get less light

I dream of a day when this changes
But hope might drive the man insane