Why is it after so many years of eating sand
I finally had a drink of water
And my heart wants to return to the sand
But I learned from my mistakes
I see the pain and hurt it caused
I gave up the sand for water
And when I did my tears reigned upon the altar
I sacrificed my false gods that day yet they still call me
So I set my eyes upon Jesus
He will pull me through this
He will give me the strength when mine is spent
Years after the day he crushed the addictions they still call my name
They still scream my name
And It awakes a demon in me
I wish people could see the filth that is in my heart of weakness
People tell me of my spirit for my Father
But every time I look at myself I want to spit
Because all I'll ever see is a godless beggar
Among Godly men