this room is sad drab empty and unloved i think stupid, useless aren't exactly the words i would use to describe myself but you can see signs of wear and tear recklessness in every corner of my room
incompetent, incapable; here's the pencil, now make it work except i've never been taught how to hold a pencil i suppose that's the type of thing you should know hold a pencil and just write
but the life has been beaten out of me out of my hand by poems i'm told i should appreciate by blanks left in the sky which beg to be filled in by me what do i know? about skies, about poems
i'd love it if i knew what my own room looked like but lately i've been turning off the lights only turning them back on in small corners where i need to see pieces of my poems i'm not so completely lost, but then again, i am ask me where i keep my clothes, where my books are
the books i'd once known like the back of my hand mean nothing to me in the dark my hand means nothing to me in the dark i may as well be the stuffy air floating aimlessly
i swear, everyone else has soft nightlights elaborate chandeliers that cast beautiful shadows across the floors
i know i am standing on the floor, that i am sitting on the floor, and those very same floors trap me in; so i know no more than the floors.