i love my home.
but at the same time, i don't

i love my family
i love the friends who care about me
i love watching friday night football games
i love staying at the softball fields for hours at a time
i love being able to walk to the library
i love living next to a lake
i love the people that are here to support me
i love how many ice cream shops are here
i love the warm summers and chilly winters
i love that i have opportunities here

but
i hate going to school every day just to be judged
i hate how so many people bring me down
i hate that no one appreciates me for everything i do for them
i hate not meeting new people
i hate that nothing ever changes for the worse or for the better
i hate the inappropriate jokes that people think are funny but are really not
i hate how no one respects each other
i hate the lies that constantly come from everyone's mouths
i hate how much people gossip about the people they call friends

i want to go away sometimes
not forever
but just for some time
to see what life is like in other places
to meet new people
to experience life in a different way
i may never get the chance to go away
but if i do
i will embrace it with my arms wide open.