I can't:
____________

go to see that moment after moment
and work after work
i am so unhappy with myself.

i keep seeing myself in the mirror as someone else --
someone else i want to be:

happier
prettier
more confident
more capable
more of everything i'm not
____________

take this brain, nor this head,
to stir this mix of pain in my mind again;
why not let my thoughts of ease
to reincarnate my life into a life
____________

have things easier

why can't it be easier

(just pretend it's okay)

why can't i love myself for who i am

(just believe it's okay)

why can't i ever be them

(don't realise it's not okay)

when will i ever be happy
when will i ever be satisfied with my own self being
when will i ever love myself more than others
when will i ever be myself

-- if myself even exists.