lost
confused
stumbling
corrupt
carving myself out raw
with my ***** fingernails
hurt
betrayed
no trust
no respect
for anyone
no one bothers to try to earn mine
hiding
constantly running
with no end
no plan
no ideas
no thoughts
in sight
gotta be quick
gotta keep those secrets
let anything slip
slow down for just a moment
then they pounce
they punch
pushing and crushing
what you have
what you are
it doesn't matter
how hard you try
to cross that bridge
that has been there for so long
its broken
has no bottom
barely connected
to the other side
you can see straight down
straight to nothing
if they find you
if they see even a glimpse
of what you have become
it won't matter
all that matters
is that they want it for themselves
they will grab you
hold you down
make it so you can't be in your mind
you have to leave yourself
so you don't think about
how you can't feel your arms, your legs
when you try to feel all that's left is pain
that makes you blind
so all you see is
straight to nothing
chaos
destruction
screaming
the whisper of death
ringing in your ears
****** knives
scratchy ropes
squeezing tighter, tighter
air is life
but with control
so easily taken away
with power
decisions whether to live or die
cracked
dusty
broken
crawling
for so long
****** knees
but with not even a breeze
of air to breathe
to blow away
all I wish I could forget
all that's left are ashes